Monday, 23 May 2011

HOW HARD IT IS TO QUIT SMOKING...

ONCE I READ SOMEWHERE..."NOW I DON'T FIGHT WITH MY INNER DEMON ANYMORE......B COS NOW  WE BOTH ARE ON THE SAME SIDE......HMMM WELL I GUESS... U CAN TAKE THIS PHRASE BOTH WAYS .....WHETHER THE DEMON INSIDE HAS LOST TO UR INNER SELF  OR THE INNER SELF HAS SUCCUMBED TO THE EVER ALLURING DEMON ....BUT I AM SUBMITTING HERE HOW DIFFICULT IT IS TO WIN OVER THE INNER DEMON..ESPECIALLY WHEN IT HAS BEEN A VICE CALLED SMOKING AND THAT TOO FOR ALMOST SIXTEEN  YEARS...........


LET ME TELL U ALL IT HAS BEEN ALMOST A YEAR  BACK WHEN I STARTED CONVINCING MYSELF TO DO AWAY WITH THIS DEMON.. I HEREBY NAME THIS DEMON AS SMOKEY....RATHER  I WAS IN SEARCH OF THE KEY TO LOCK SMOKEY...IN THE DUNGEONS OF PAST....SO I STARTED FINDING REASONS TO CONVINCE MYSELF TO GIVE A FATAL BLOW TO  SMOKEY ....


I STARTED INITIATING CONVERSATIONS WITH MY CLOSE  FRIENDS AND MY PEER GROUP ABOUT SMOKEY....AND ALL HAD THE SAME POINT OF CONCERN ....THAT SMOKEY WILL ALWAYS ...IN ALL WAYS RUIN THE LIFE OF  AN INDIVIDUAL.....NOT A SINGLE FRIEND, EVEN THE FELLOW SMOKERS COULD NOT HELP  BUT...SUPPORT  THE CONSENSUS OF ITS ILL EFFECTS....


DAYS PASSED...AND THEN WEEKS...SMOKEY STARTED PLAYING ON MY MIND.....THAN ONE FINE DAY I STARTED WITH A PROMISE TO SELF THAT I WILL NOT SMOKE BEFORE BREAKFAST.......... I STILL REMEMBER THAT DAY....WHEN I HAD THE FIRST TWO PUFFS OF SMOKEY.... MY HANDS STARTED SHIVERING.....EYES WENT RED....COULD FEEL THE PALPITATION..AS IF SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME......HMMMM BUT AS ALL SMOKERS JUST WHEN THE BODY IS GOT THE DESIRED LEVEL OF THE DEMON...SMOKEY TONIC...BODY USED TO GET RELAXED....THEN THE WHOLE DAY PASSED WITH SMOKEY IN MY HAND....THAT'S WHEN I FELT LIKE A MAN.....


AGAIN DAYS PASSED...WEEKS AND MONTHS...EVERY DAY I USE TO DREAD TO TAKE THE FIRST PUFF ....GET TIZZY AND REGRET THE WHOLE DAY ...WHY DID I NOT STOP MY SELF TODAY FROM THIS TEMPTATION OF SMOKEY....


THEN CAME THE DAY WHEN I  WAS IN A PARTY WHERE I HEARD ABOUT ANOTHER DOC WHO WAS SUFFERING BADLY DUE TO THE SAME DEMON...........AND WHEN THE DISCUSSIONS STARTED ONE AFTER THE OTHER ... SIMILAR STORIES WITH SAME CONCLUSIONS......NOW...MY MIND WAS AS SUCH READY TO KICK THE DEMON ...I HAD NOW GOT  THE BRIDGE  TO TRAVEL FROM BODY TO SOUL...TO CONVINCE BOTH WHAT I HAD TO DO.........THEN CAME THE SOUL RUSH....AND THEN THERE WAS NO LOOKING BACK....MIND WON OVER THE BODY.......I PROUDLY SAY THAT I HAVE QUIT SMOKING....AND I AM NOT AFRAID THAT I WILL PICK  IT UP AGAIN ..B COS I HAVE LOCKED  SMOKEY IN YESTER YEARS AND THROWN THE KEY ALONG WITH THE FEARS...


NOW THERE SO MUCH POSITIVE ENERGY.....MY CLOTHES DON'T STINK...I DON'T SMELL LIKE AN ASH TRAY.....I CLIMB THE STAIRS WITHOUT GASPING.........AND ABOVE ALL I HAVE PROVEN THAT HABIT...I REPEAT HABIT CAN BE CHANGED OR MODIFIED OR EVEN REMOVED.......AS ALWAYS WISE MEN SAID....HABIT NEVER GOES.....NOW PEOPLE ARE WISER...AND CAN PROVE  OTHERWISE........


I WISH ALL THE PEOPLE WHO WISH TO QUIT SMOKING...ALL THE VERY BEST.....AND I CAN TELL YOU ..U CAN........





3 comments:

  1. Congrats......For Conquering SMOKEY

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  2. Ths is such a wonderful piece of writing that you have poured your feelings into. Congrats and may you have the strength to fight smokey forever.

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  3. thanks Mr Creative....and thanks raindrop....in lucknow now smokey is gone with the smoke.

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